The Wicked of Oz

Yes, the grass is always greener on the other side...And it seems you may pull through, but you won't; you can't. It's only a mirror...

You can look, but you can't touch. Such is the pain of memory and lost time- and as you can see this clock has no hands. Is it dusk or is it dawn?

What does it reflect for you? Where would you rather be? *sigh* The nature of hope and nostalgia... The music, the scents, the lights...It's always quite fun, reminiscing...

War always dresses pretty, and a Heart of Stone could be in fashion. Just pluck it out and plaster it on the wall- there's no real use for it. After all, who can fly with just one wing. Decoration isn't everything, although to some it's sufficient. The heartlessness of it all... Can you really face this mirror?

Painted the face of my best friend somewhere around there- may you rest in peace: I remember you every day, every single day...

I can still hear the bells for the hopeless trapped in this twilight...

We were having a nice day at the beach of simple beer gulping and sightseeing when I sighted something strange on the shore...

(No you can't see it there cuz this is the mobile picture that was snapped just before the discovery!)

These creatures are prowling the oceans! Disguising as Tacos Purses of Purple Doom!

It's a Purple Zombie Jellyfish in Taco Disguise LVL 5!



And some other random beach sights:



And some cacti:

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I finally gave in to the fabulous world of television…after years of not watching any. Moving back to live with the ‘rents has a lot to do- that and the fact that my town is in the middle of fucking nowhere and I don’t really like cockfights or baseball. Or kids. It’s all about the kids. Kids here, kids there… kids, kids, kids, kids, kids! Seriously, what the fuck? I thought Buddhists were a bit cuckoo in the head with all their kid-Buddha reincarnated stuff…But in America, and Puerto Rico, it seems as eeeeeevery household has their own personal baby Buddha (some have 1-4+, even if they're retarded) or…baby Jesus (edited for those feisty other-religion-hater-close-minded x-tians).

For fucks sake! I DON’T CARE IF YOUR KID SAID DADDY FOR THE FIRST TIME. By the time your kid learned to say "Mommy" I was already running, talking in complete sentences and drawing all over the place. Get a life or get a real baby genius! I rather do it the Asian way. One worshipped kid per nation. All the rest should compete for especial attention, scholarships, admissions, food, healthcare...LOL

Oh, I derailed. Back to television. I should be painting, and I can’t cuz my muse isn’t cooperating but I almost have it. I just need to pick a damn palette and the wardrobe for the multiple Toris. OK, OK, OK! Back to television. (Worry not I will finish the piece if and only if I don’t keep getting interrupted by people or life or whatever.)

I don’t care about this or that brother of Joe Doe who I happened to take a few classes back in high school, whose name I don't even know...getting sick, or whatever else, your secretary's kid died in a car crash due to his negligent driving, OK sorry for her, but I have my own 'traumas' to deal with and guess what?: it's not something as easy to accept as an accident or illness. What you are doing on your free time, is none of my business. Thing is, December is usually a busy month for me, charged with fucking shit I do not need to know, deal, think about, confront, feel or anything. I just want to be left alone so I can paint. ALONE. If I need to eat, I’ll just kill a few lizards and make a stew with them and some snails. I’ll add moth-powdered wings and spicy flying-ant-intestine sauce for the whimsy flavor.

So finally- back to television. I have been watching Project Runway. And the show is kind of stupid, but hear this: I can’t stop watching it. OMG it's addictive. I'm addicted to a stupid show. I’ve also watched a lot of Kathy Griffin who is funny sometimes, but more controversial than funny. I like it that she speaks so much shit about all the celebs, but I would love it more if I actually cared more about these celebs so I could laugh more. Also she has taken a bit of material from Margaret Cho- who actually does make me laugh more.

Back to Project Runway: wouldn’t it be fabulous if we had our very own… show for visual artists. Well, one for Photographers and another for Painters/Draftsmen... You can't mix these two usually: they'll rip the gallery to shreds. The painters will say photography is not an art and the photographers will take pics of the painters pieces and say it's Appropriation, or of the artists themselves doing artwork, or of themselves cuz they don't have the moolah or the charm to score with actual models. So I'll focus on my team, the painters and draftsmen. We'll just get 15 of them and a panel of very, very, very bitchy judges consisting of: a deadbeat famous artist who won’t be making it anymore cuz s/he got too old/last season/retro image/etc. (you got the idea no?), the changing 'chair' who's always new per show and challenge, the obvious asslicker with connection with the show’s producer who is always there, no one knows him or her, well let's say they do know him but s/he's not as famous as s/he thinks, but s/he knows people, aaaaaaaaand of course, the hateful art magazine editor/director. The only requirement is that they are extremely bitchy.

On this same note: hi!, you who thought I was fucking Brazilian. Nothing against Brazilians by the way- they are hot people- but wtf?, you could’ve at least sent me an em@il to ask me about my freaking nationality. Do I look Brazilian guys? All the American, Puerto Rican, Spanish & German blood in me (to not trail into the Native American, British, Scottish, yadda yadda, oh wait, I trailed already…) boils at the thought of being confused with a Brazilian, not because I don’t like Brazilians but because I just dislike the Portuguese language, makes me sleep. Although not as much as I diss French.

Back to the show, we’d also need a psychiatrist and a bunch of buff psych-ward experienced nurses with a healthy supply of restraining shirts and drugs. Also to ban any sort of cutting instrument from the premises in case any of the rejected artists gets too emo and decides to check out early. The show would be much more intense…since the time span instead of a day or two should be extended to 2-3 weeks- unless you want a bunch of ripped off overpainted shit as end results… This time extension will be so delicious to build up drama boiling point.

Drama, OMG, so much drama in Runway… all of them try too hard to call attention and pretend to have any style whatsoever…and the few people who actually have style and innovation get eliminated really early for overstepping way too much over the line. And then others who actually don’t overstep over the line, get eliminated for not being more original. Decide for fucks sake! Oh and all of them ‘learned a lot’ and are very very very grateful for the experience. Bitches, pleaaaaase! I bet most of us can translate these “learning experiences” to “omg that fucking bitch dissed me and I’m eliminated and I don’t even get to say proper goodbye to the roommate whose farts I’ve been smelling for all these nights”. But as much as I criticize it, it’s delicious to watch.   

Art School was sort of like Project Runway in many ways. You’ll get an assignment, then put up to be judged in front of all your peers, just that instead of 4-5 judges, you had an entire group to shred you to pieces if they wanted. But you actually didn’t have to concede power- all you needed was a strong enough personality to be intimidating and they wouldn’t dare say a thing. This would leave only you vs. the professor. So much sass and drama. I think I miss it.

Online art communities should learn a lil’ bit from this Art School/Project Runway dynamics. I think most of the time people online asslick and applaud anything as if it’s mommy’s fridge’s door art-magnet place… Most of the time you cannot discern (unless you are actually very self critical) what critique is sincere and which is not…cuz they all LOVE IT. It sucks but they love it, and you have always improved so much. Whatever happened to honesty and frankness and all the well-deserved bitchiness… Little Buddha Syndrome again?

And if you do happen to give a sincere critique, for constructive purposes (not a flame war of course), then be prepared to don your armor for a lot of missiles will come your way… either from the critiqué or the entourage… Reality is: out there things run more along the bitchiness and the drama found in this TV show than all the asslicking found online... and most artists would benefit greatly if they were just  a little less stubborn and a little more open to growth.

I rarely care about fucked up news like this.
But she was my best friend.

Unemployed artist strangles young woman after date

I can't even describe accurately how I feel right now.
And apparently all I can do is try out so they don't keep badmouthing her.

She was 24.
Puerto Rican (yes, she could pass as Asian, so does many of my family members... a lot of Puerto Rican people have Native American blood which gives you pretty mongoloid genes)
Her birthday was gonna be next week on the 18th.
She just moved to NY, got a wonderful job there in Immigration and even passed Federal Clearance. She had been working here on a crappy translation service job from her apartment, while her parents had to sell house and move to the states (Indiana) because of the generally bad economics of the island (P.R.).

Lorna was non-confrontational, she would avoid heated situations and flee as if there was the plague.
Lorna was non-violent and non physical (I can't count how many times I told her to serve some well deserved slaps to which she didn't have the trigger- she just didn't, it wouldn't even occur to her, that's just how she was).
Yes, Lorna had a few piercings. Yes Lorna liked lapdances (even I went with her to the strip club to see the girls and I'm gay) This doesn't make anyone a bad person. Her parents knew about all this. In fact, her mom was her best friend. They had a very very open relationship.
Lorna never ever slept just like that with just anybody, she had her personal reasons (with heavy/hard psychological issues around this). She just didn't. I can bet my head on it. When it came to this she was quite prudish.

Which probably means she was raped and killed. I don't even want to think he had sex with her dead body and I wouldn't be surprised at this point.

Yet, she was a bit naive. That I give her. But nonetheless, this is totally unfair on her or anybody...it's just surreal.

I still refuse to believe it. Even though it's slapping on my face from everywhere...
I feel as if I can't do a thing... and it's just TOO HARD TO SWALLOW.

I loved Lorna like a sister. She was family to me. I knew all her secrets and she knew mine. We never ever fought and I could always count on her. She was my refuge. If I needed anywhere to go and hide from the world for a while and just have breakfast meals the whole day, I'd go to her. The kind of friendship where silence is not awkward but rewarding. She didn't judge me. She was quite likeable (if you just met her you would think she was charming and a cool girl) and her few friends all love her. This is just fucked up.

Yep, that's right, and that's what I've thought for years and years...

THEY ARE OVERRATED!

Who? (I bet you are asking yourself by now) Warhol, Picasso...you know them. The usual bunch...even Dali and the other 'well known' modernists... and most recent, postmodernists.

At every discussion of visual arts found online, the same names aaaaaalways come up. Apparently the world doesn't have any other valuable artists to talk about. Even I ended up mentioning them above.

It's all as if Galinda (Glinda) in the Wicked musical version was right:

I remind them on their own behalf
To - think - of
Celebrated heads of state,
Or specially great communicators!
Did they have brains or knowledge?
Don't make me laugh!

They were POPULAR!
Please!
it's all about popular.
It's not about aptitude,
It's the way you're viewed,
So it's very shrewd to be,
Very very popular

Talent only matters after we are all dead...and someone actually starts appreciating it. But we gotta die first so we are not competition and not a threat to anybody else, and 'god forbid' that we may be better than anyone and de-substantiate their specialness in any way whatsoever.

It's really hilarious to hear such "big" names in the mouth of people who apparently haven't really done their research...
Especially when it's a digital illustrator...or a fantasy artist, who is using the name to back up any statement and whose art is seen as not art by the high art curators. (I usually think of the high in high art as a drugged high. Let's face it, you gotta be either high or drunk to even consider calling some of the shit I've seen art.)

Let's go wiki on this (OMG I'm such a 'puter 933|<):

"Fantasy art should not be confused with the fantastic art genre, which can contain fantastical elements that are not always considered "fantasy" per se."

"Despite the technical skill of many of its practitioners, and despite (or arguably because of) its popularity, Fantasy art is not considered part of the 'canon', or 'fine art', in the sense that it is not hung in galleries, subsidized by governments, studied in art schools etc."

These beautiful notions of what is and isn't 'high art'- art worth the while to be put in museums and sold in galleries is really influenced by the philosophies of modernism...which are actually quite heightened by it's popular figures, like Picasso, and the popular pop artist figures such as Warhol... Both who I'm sure are still laughing their ass off how they keep fooling the World even today... I'm really happy that nowadays any fool can pick up a can of worms and call it art and that money can actually buy you a career in the arts (and if you are too ugly for that, money can also fix it up). But foolishness should only be tolerated to a certain point.

Perhaps they were right, and the bunch of fantasy artists (*note that I wrote fantasy, not fantastic and on how different it is*) who are not clever enough to call themselves surreal artists, or pop art artists, or visionary artists, or the latter...pop surrealism artists (priorly lowbrow artists but the name has been dropped on an actual chance of being recognized by the curators as an art movement and to join the ranks of the high brow/ high art group) should not be taken seriously at all. If they do take themselves at least a little bit seriously, they will actually start taking a second to think on how they define themselves and their art and where it may take them. All it takes is instead of using fantasy, wording it as fantastic. It's all they care about, remember that talent doesn't really matter, what matters is popularity and to be popular, you gotta speak pretty, like the politicians. Remember to smile a lot too. And to speak really slowly, so that there is no confusion on what you just said.

Why do I get angry? Well, I do think that a lot of the work I see from peers should be hanging in the galleries, instead of the Picasso blotches, the crappy Campbell soup cans (and I don't care how smart they make some people feel!) and the rotting lambs in bathroom stalls.

If art expresses culture, and what I see around and in the media is actually quite akin to lots and lots of influences from works of fantasy and whatnot (come on, let's be honest: most of the kids are raised in front of the TV and video game console machines and computers are an integral part of their growth) then how come the art that actually fuels this current modern society isn't taken more seriously?

I know a lot of it sucks (there are only so many faeries, horses with horns, and bridal gown maidens in the forest the world can sustain, not to mention winged playboy/girl babes/studs, fashion photography airbrushed to perfection with added lens-flare filter and such...) but some of them are actually worthy of a bit more of recognition and consideration from the curator wing. All it takes is the right wording and a successful expression of the usual cookie artist personality and from time to time use big words like social-relevance and other politically-related-issue words. Not only this, but it's work that has a lot more reach than the taxidermied mice heads on human fingers...(even though the latter usually causes a bigger shock/impression) Blah blah blah. Yes, and kudos to the Japanese. If you are clever enough you'll know why I say this.

Real Name: Ethelinde Gudruna
Current Identity: Atanasia Zaharia
Bloodline: Lamia
Disciplines:  Mortis(Paths: The Grave's Decay, The Corpse in the Monster, Cadaverous Animation), Deimos (Now the Path of the Four Humours), Fortitude, Potence

( Some excerpts from her mortal life background story... )

Live perfectly
safe

secure

selfish boy
emo boy

you wear sunglasses for the moonlight

you don't know what it is to be lonely,
because your voice is always there.
it tells you: "you are wonderful",
doing wonders...

in the right path.

you're so special
specially common...(a good word to save us from undeserved adjectives)

morally superior to everything human
almost godly,
in the Christian puritan sense of the word-
not the real one.

real divinity means apathy...
why would a deity care about the lesser souls?

perhaps you are a god after all:
a prissy, calculating, overbearing,
attention seeker,
Obsessive Compulsive,
prudish,
hypocritical,
perfect,
fake
flower.

real flowers die
& the time is nigh

there is no experience without mistakes

keep un-living
keep controlling

liar.

You think it's fun being 'gifted'? This is the kind of shit I've had to deal with all my life... and I needed help, let's say I never got proper support... I still struggle with these- it's not easy at all. I don't get the kind of sympathy the disabled get. It is just as disabling to be 'different' in a society where not being normal is resented.

 

Errr...WTF? Apparently being honest makes me a liar? LOL Seriously, I derive too much pleasure from outward straightforward up-your-face kind of attitude... so why quit? But I liked some of the other adjectives...

I guess sleeping with married people, not really caring about faithfulness and saying God is on a road trip put me on the "bad" side.

Fashionista 33% Flamboyance, 56% Originality, 55% Deliberateness, 43% Sexiness

[Tasteful Original Deliberate Prissy] One is certain: you have great taste and plenty of ideas. You have clearly defined beliefs about what's good and what's bad in fashion but they are far from banal. Stylish and imaginative, you prefer to inspire admiration than to shock and you mostly succeed. Even if sometimes you'd like to have more courage to put on something absolutely outrageous you do great job in creating a unique look that others look up to. There is a possibility that you work in the fashion industry. If you don't, perhaps you should. The opposite style from yours is Bar Cruiser [Flamboyant Conventional Random Sexy]. All the categories: Librarian Sporty Hottie Office Master Uptown Girl/ Boy Brainy Student Movie Star Fashionista Glamorous Soul Fashion Enemy Bar Cruiser Kid Next Door Sex Bomb Hippie Kid Fashion Rebel Fashion Artist Catwalk God(ess)

Link: The Fashion Style Test

Taken from: musechick2007

You scored as C.G. Jung. You are more of a spiritualist than would be immediately apparent. Some of your notions are questioned by the cynical, but deep down you know the human consciousness is more than the flesh and tissue can account for. You tend to take a scientific observationist look on matters the average person wouldn't even begin to analyze. You personally are responsible for most of the ideas that are floating around in modern psychologist's/psychic's paltry little skulls. On the down side, you tend to be associated with that asshole Freud. C.G. Jung 92% Friedrich Nietzsche 83% Miyamoto Musashi 75% Steven Morrissey 67% Jesus Christ 58% O.J. Simpson 58% Elvis Presley 50% Hugh Hefner 50% Sigmund Freud 50% Adolf Hitler 42% Dante Alighieri 42% Stephen Hawking 25% Charles Manson 0% Mother Teresa 0% What Pseudo Historical Figure Best Suits You?

öz will go to jail for ...


Using your dildo as a weapon of mass destruction



'What sexual activity will you go to jail for?'

Taken from _myxwonderland_

I got linked. And I think she's fabilis!
Best of lucks sweetie darling, and moreover lotsa success!
<3
http://www.ysabellabrave.com/

i0lit3     

I took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test! "Seeks success, stimulation, and a life full of exp..." Click here to read the rest of the results.

o___O;

And this one I take from time to time...just for kicks.
Apparently I'm the lovechild of Tori, Fiona and Dave Navarro.

 

A moth stole me a tender kiss,
Then flew away into my dark bathroom.
Disappeared,
but she did it daintily;
A graceful greeting indeed indebted.
I smell like chocolate and vanilla,
Whoever branded candy as a woman’s scent…
Apple juice rainbow colored bubbles,
A piano stomping restlessly in my mind,
Distorted reflections in cheap sunglasses,
I have black scissors between my thighs.
My skin is the only pale I got this winter...
Bring me back my sweets!,
Give me my prodigal muse.
My small windmill entwined in electrical ivy,
Misplaced objects, replaced subjects,
Queen of Swords on top of my Tarot deck,
Faceless bamboo growing on a crystal lamp,
Candles waiting patiently to have their wicker lit.
My mask is broken,
This book is finished.
Such is my bedroom
And the room inside my head
This quiet yet melodious January night.

I was complaining about nothing happening in my life when all of a sudden my condominium had a fire emergency.“Way to go!” - I thought…

( ♪...the roof, the roof, the roof is on fire...♪ )

Done for the sole purpose of tricking myself into thinking I can be normal, and so you can think you can eventually get to know me (without really trying...)

Advocating Creator

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(kidnapped from stella_mortis in a weird way)

Your result for The LONG Scientific Personality Test...

INTP - the Architect

You are more introverted than extroverted. You are more intuitive than observant, you are more thinking based than feeling based, and you prefer to go with the flow rather than have a routine. The single word to describe your type is the Architect, which belongs to the larger group of rationals. You wish to sculpt the world around you. Others often find you arrogant, yet you have no desire to direct others, only to inform them. You must know the structure of things, and have a voracious appetite for knowledge. You are very rational in everything you do, and probably consider yourself smarter than most.
As a romantic partner, you can be playful with great energy to get things started, but not quite as good on follow through. You may have a tendency to hurt the more emotional types unintentionally by not sharing your own reactions and feelings as you can get swept up in your own ideas and projects. You want to be appreciated for your ability to respond quickly and to fix problems creatively. You need plenty of time to yourself - therefore your parnter must respect your need for independence and originality.
Your group summary: Rationals (NT)
Your type summary: INTP

Take The LONG Scientific Personality Test at HelloQuizzy

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and another testu...cuz we deserve it! <3

The Sublime Philosophical Crap Test

N-A-R
You scored 66% Non-Reductionism, 77% Epistemological Absolutism, and 0% Moral Objectivism!

You are an N-A-R: a metaphysical Non-Reductionist, an epistemological Absolutist, and a moral Relativist.

 

( If you are simply dying inside to figure out what all this mumbo-jumbo means, then simply continue reading.  )

Ethics: Relativism (Subjectivism or Emotivism)
My test measures one's tendency towards moral Objectivism or moral Relativism in regards to ethics. As a moral Relativist, you tend to see moral choices as describing a subject's reaction to a moral object or situation, and not as a property of the moral object itself. You may also feel that moral words are meaningless because they do not address any empirical fact about the world. My test recognizes two types of moral relativists--Subjectivists and Emotivists.

1. Subjectivists see individual or collective desires as defining a situation's or object's moral worth. Thus, the subject, not the object itself, determines the value. Subjectivists recognize that social rules, customs, and morality have been wide-ranging and quite varied throughout history among various cultures. As a result, Subjectivism doesn't attempt to issue hard and fast rules for judging the moral worth of things. Instead, it recognizes that what we consider "good" and "right" is not bound by any discernable rule. There is no one trait that makes an act good or right, because so many different kinds of things have been called good and right. In regards to the definition of "good" or "right", a Subjectivist will tend to define it as whatever a particular person or group of people desire. They do not define it merely as "happiness" or "pleasure", for instance, because sometimes we desire to do things that do not produce pleasure, and because we don't consider all pleasurable things good. Furthermore, Subjectivists recognize the validity of consequentialism in that sometimes we refer to consequences as good and bad--but they also recognize that our intentions behind an action, or the means to the end, can also determine an act's moral worth. Again, there is no one rule to determine these things. Hence the relativism of moral Subjectivism. The most well-known of the subjectivists is Nietzsche.

If that didn't sound like your position, then you are probably the other variety of moral Relativist--the Emotivist.
Emotivists are moral Relativists only in a very slanted sense, because they actually deny that words about morality have any meaning at all. An Emotivist would probably accept Hume's argument that it is impossible to derive an "ought" from an "is"--no factual state of affairs can logically entail any sort of moral action. Furthermore, a emotivist's emphasis on scientific (and hence empirical) verification and testing quickly leads to the conclusion that concepts such as "good" and "right" don't really describe any real qualities or relations. Science is never concerned with whether a particular state of affairs is moral or right or good--and an emotivist feels much the same way. Morality is thus neither objective or subjective for the emotivist--it is without any meaning at all, a sort of vague ontological fiction that is merely a symbol for our emotional responses to certain events. Famous emotivists include Ayer and other positivists associated with the Vienna Circle.

As you can see, when your philosophical position is narrowed down there are so many potential categories that an OKCupid test cannot account for them all. But, taken as very broad categories or philosophical styles, you are best characterized as an N-A-R. Your exact philosophical opposite would be an R-S-O</div>

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The which of the Endless are you? Test

Delirium
Congrats! You scored 20!

Umm...yea. Delirium is a very unusual perpetual young woman. She used to be Delight, but the world changed and so did the people in it, morphing her function and her being as well. She's generally very fun and adorable and light-hearted, but also very confused and insistent and kind of aggrivating. She has a hard time really existing the way she is, but goes on with a lopsided smile. She's especially loves her brother Destruction, and led a search for him after his 300 years of absence. Also, she loves butterflies.

( To confirm that above...(and to worry me about myself even more....) ) *

Delirium


Delirium, the youngest of The Endless, you are the keeper of insanity,
delusion and everything else that's just plain crazy. You make about as much sense as fish and telephone flavored ice cream. You are truly your own person,and the fact that your eyes don't match, your hair is three different colors, and you have a floating fish following you bother you any. You have a truly unique perspective on the world, and no one else knows what to think about it. Take this quiz!</div>